It's Been Too Long

Just wanted to update you on Miracle Miller since it has been a while since we added to this blog. A few nights back I had woke up around 4am to find Matt reading this blog. He was smiling and then reminded me we had not updated this blog for quite some time. So here we are--updating it...finally! (Sorry for the delay.)

Miracle Miller has been sharing his smiles with us for almost 3 years now. Each morning I wake up--no matter how tired I am--he manages to somehow put a smile on my face in his own unique way. We can't believe how big he has gotten and his vocabulary is about to surpass ours. He can't stop talking, walking, playing, running and everything else a toddler loves to do! He is amazing!

Miller is now enjoying preschool and has many friends. Well, in fact, has a few girlfriends too including his first girlfriend--Caroline. A cute little blond that comes from a sweet family--so I have already given it my blessing. :) But true to all guys--he has made her mad and I think they broke up for a little bit around Valentine's Day--but have gotten back together since then. I think they have sort of a Love You/Love my toys more relationship but so it goes and I am proud of him for trying to learn how to share.

Life is good for all of us DeLorenzo's. Everyone seems to be healthy--knock on wood--with the exception of Matt's ankle which he will have surgery in early December. Lucky for me he is having it right after Miller's 3rd Birthday. I am sure that Miller will be helpful to his daddy while he is laid up as that Miller has exhibited many "caring" and "nurturing" qualities. So much that he keeps asking for a baby brother or sister but I don't think I am ready to go there just yet. (That is subject for another blog entry later.)

So sweet Miller--almost 3--in fact ON Thanksgiving Day this year. I remember laying on the couch 3 years ago just praying that Miller would get here heathly and happy after week 32--so I had already accepted that his birthday may land on Thanksgiving. This is the first year that it has landed on THE day. I have come to the conclusion that it is the perfect day for his birthday mainly because we are so THANKFUL to be celebrating such a special boy's birthday. Of course, a Longhorn win would be something else to be thankful for too! I am sure that is what Miller is going to be wishing for when he blows out his candles---a Longhorn win AND perhaps a "Toy Story" or Spiderman toy. :)

Peace, Love & Smiles from The DeLo's

What if....

They say you can't live your life on "what if's" but it doesn't make it any easier. I don't care what has happened in your lifetime and how long it has been, you will always remember the day that you lost your child. Not everyone can understand what I am feeling but for those that do, I understand the pain. Right when you think you have accepted it and that "things are easier" now that they really aren't. Each year, at the same day/time/moment you realize when your life was drastically changed that only a few women can understand. Not that I am minimizing the feelings of the father but it's different. It's different because only I understand what it felt like to be kicked by both Lawton and Miller. The feeling of them rolling in my stomach, the feeling that they were hitting each other and sharing "feelings" and touches in utero. Does Miller remember his brother? I honestly think he does. THe other day it was thundering and threatening to rain. We were outside and he was enjoying it until the thunder was really loud...and he got scared. I tried to reassure himn that it was ok and I said that it was Lawton playing with God and was being pulled around in his new wagon--and Miller looked up and pointed---and said "baby". He was so right on and it was so amazing to know that he still felt the love and touch of his brother.

So does it get easier after the loss of one baby only to be survived by an incredible child? No.....the loss of a child will always be the death of a child. We just have to learn that there with much pain means that there is still love for both our children...the one here on earth and the child in heaven. That with each "anniversary" comes reflection of life and love...and that our love grows towards each other with every moment experienced and our sweet baby Miracle Miller. I love you Baby Lawton and remember the special moments that we had together.

Miller's First Baseball Game

It was TX vs OU for Miller's first baseball game and it was awesome! He loved the crowd and was yelling as loud as he could to join in the games festivities. Pretty funny watching him react to the cheers and yelling by the others in the crowd. He was eating Dana and I out of pocket as he loved his first corndog as well...

Mr. Miller you are pretty awesome. This picture was taken by Mom just outside the Disch-Falk Field on April 19, 2009...

Happy Thanksgiving and Happy Birthday Miller!

Make a Smilebox greeting

Time flies....

...when you are having fun and little sleep! Well, the fun part is the most accurate part of that statement. Sleep has been great now and fairly consistent. He is amazing and full of love.

Sorry that we have not written on this blog since March---but we have been all rather busy figuring each other out. I honestly think that Miller is smarter than Matt and I together. He has us so wrapped around his little finger and knows it.

Let's see---here are some "stats" about Miracle Miller---he is a little over 9 1/2 months. He is around 20 pounds but that is us figuring it out on our scale at home. He will go to Dr. Mirrop right before he turns 10 months. I am dreading this appointment because I know that it is a "bigger appointment" since he gets a huge series of shots. The question that we are faced is that do we let him get his shots all at one time OR do we divide the shots up. I believe it is the MMR shot that some are saying that leads to autism in children. Then again--there are always 2 sides to the story. So here we are, doing tons of research to see what the "right thing" to do will be for us. Yes, everyone has their own views about this subject--so if you would like to share anything with us, then please do.

Oh--2 weeks ago--Miller decided that it was his time to start crawling. Well, we call it crawling but I think it is more of the miltary crawling thing. It is funny to watch--but at the same time scary knowing that our boy is about to get really mobile. Here is a video of him crawling on the first day.....notice that we have moved all of big furniture out of our living room. I never understood why people with children had nothing in their living room but now I completely understand...better safe than sorry.

Miller has finally added 2 teeth to his wonderful smile--and believe it or not, he is even cuter! Spoken like a very proud parent! :) Actually, Miller's timing, as always, is impeccable because he decided to get his first tooth in when his daddy had ACL reconstruction on his knee! Fun weekend! Actually, it has been a fun month with a teething baby and a husband on vicodin! We have finally cojme out of this fun fog with a husband with a new knee, able to help more AND a very cute and happy baby. No complaints here!

So, I am not sure what is in store for us in the very near future but all is doing great in the DeLo household. We still can't believe that in a little over 2 months that Miller is going to be 1 year old. Time definitely flies by when you are having an amazing life.

Oh---Miller's new best friends were born in the past few weeks. Jake Long was born to David and Julie Long on the first home UT football game day. A true longhorn!!! I wasn't surprised since his parents are huge longhorns too. Next, Nicholas McGuire was born this past Tuesday. All mothers,fathers and babies are doing great! Miller just can't wait for the boys to get big enough so he can play with them. I bet he may even try to teach them a few things too!

Peace and Love to you all!

The DeLo's

Back by Popular Demand

Yes, we are back on the blog. No, nothing bad has happened to any of us, but rather after finally getting out of the house after a long (read: VERY LONG) pregnancy we have heard many of you say that you kept up with us through our blog. Well, after thinking about it, I (Dana) realized that this was a great way of keeping in touch, detailing our experiences and more so, helping me keep my sanity. The blog has been very therapeutic for me and guess I am in need of more therapy! ha-ha!

Anyway, today is November 25 and it has been 4 months since Miller blessed us with his presence. As of this past Sunday, I like to say, Jesus has risen, Spring has sprung and I am finally coming out of the "new mommy" fog. Matt has been trying to shake his fog by playing more golf. I think it has been working for him too. :)

So, our sweet boy is 4 months. He has been here almost as long as I was ordered on bed rest. I definitely would take these past 4 months than those long, boring ones on my couch, watching the world drive, walk, run by our house. However, these past 4 months have flown by and are in no way like the previous 4 months that dragged on and on.

Miller has been so much fun and now he is finally showing us how much fun he has been having with us. He likes to laugh and smile at us. I honestly think he is happy because he is getting more sleep--about 7 to 10 hours a night--with a small "wake up" call after about 4 hours of going to bed. I am trying to get him to stop doing this but not sure how to do it just yet. Many of our friends say that he will sleep even harder (and not do the special "wakeup" call) after he starts eating more than just formula. He has a doctor's appointment on April 1st and we are hoping that the doctor will give us the "go ahead" for the rice cereal.

He weighs about 13 pounds and that is just my guess for now. He is eating alot and definitely does not look like a baby that was born early. He has caught up and he did it fast!! We love his little baby fat rolls but not sure how he likes for us to keep pinching/squeezing them but we can't help it!

All in all-these past 4 months have been the best ones of our lives--and definitely worth the other 4 where I watched the world go by. If ever asked to do it again, I would do it in a heartbeat! Once again, we are true believers in the power of prayer! We can't thank you enough for all of the prayers y'all said for us! We hold our miracle every day. Miller is incredible.

I hope that you are all are doing well! Peace and Love to you all!

Dana, Matt and Miracle Miller

After a Miraculous Comeback...Team Miller Wins!!!

Team Miller has officially won the BIG game and is now currently celebrating this special victory with lots of partying all hours of the night, drinking lots of milk, and definitely lots of dirty diapers!

As of Sunday, November 25th at 6:06am--the game officially ended and the celebration started! Miller was born and he weighed in at a hefty 5 pounds/13 ounces and 18 inches long! At the time he was born, he was 35 weeks and 6 days. Now, he is officially 1 week old and doing incredible!!

Mommy and Daddy are doing wonderful too! Just enjoying this big win and celebrating all hours of the night with Miller. Tired but so deliriously happy because Miller is a wonderful baby! Even the nurses at Seton would comment what a good baby he was especially for being a "near term" baby! He is very alert, on a schedule already and is exactly like his daddy! Everyone is thankful that he is so good--which is an extra blessing!

Currently, the whole family is at home now and have been here since Wednesday afternoon. We have already had to go to the peditricians office on Thursday to make sure he wasn't dropping too much weight--and he was good at 5 pounds and 4 ounces. Another doctor's visit is set for Monday! (Mommy gets one too so that they can check on the hernia surgery because we never got a chance to go see the doctor 1 week postop due to being in the hospital.)

Lastly--MVP for the BIG game was voted on being Lawton DeLorenzo. Without his strength, and love for his family---this big game win would never have been possible!!

A special thank you to Team Miller's special "coaches" including all of the brilliant doctors, nurses, family and friends! We truly believe in Miracles because we have one at home with us!

Mommy and Daddy have to go because Miller is "calling" us to help him continue the celebration! Mommy gets to bring the milk this time! Also, Mommy and Daddy are going to end this blog now and start a new one because this is now the beginning of a new game called "life". Praise God! With God, all things are possible!

Peace and Love to you all!!

Dana, Matt and Miracle Miller

My what??

Ok....I obviously spoke too soon last Friday when I said that it was our "quiet time" and we were enjoying listening to the bliss of the stillness of the household as well as enjoying a "normal pregnancy" finally! This changed a little as of this past Monday. No, no worries....Miller is not here yet!


On Monday--Week 35/Day 1, we went to go in for our normal OB doctor's visit. It has been nice to have "normal" check-ups because this pregnancy has been far from normal! MM was looking great and they did a quick check on size and they thought he was approaching 6 pounds! They say it is hard to tell when you do growth checks so close together--so not sure how much I believe that he is a 6 pounder already. Then again, it is hard for us to believe that we are even at this stage when 15 weeks ago--we were just trying to get to week 24, 28, 30 and then week 32.

Anyway--after the OB doctor, we had to visit another doctor because my belly button didn't look quite normal---like other prego women have. Dr. U wanted me to be safe than sorry thus he wanted me to get it checked out by a general surgeon. Our doctor's appointment was immediately following the OB one. By 9am---Matt and I had learned that we were suddenly scheduled for surgery later that afternoon to fix my umbilical hernia. My what????

Yes, to add yet another twist to this very unusual pregnancy---I had surgery on Monday at 2pm though waking up that morning we had no clue that surgery was even an option for that day. Our heads were spinning because so many things could have happen. The surgery was under general anesthesia so both MM and I slept through it. He came through it like a champ--though he did give us a little scare because his heartbeat got down to a 107. (His normal is from 140-160) So he did give us a scare---but once again, we realized that we have a special angel in Heaven, Lawton, and here on earth, Julie, who took care of us. Julie, our best friend and nurse practitioner, came in right at the exact moment when the nurses were trying to hunt down Dr. U to see what they should do. Julie quickly took control of the situation--made them turn me on my left side--thus giving MM more oxygenated blood (or something like that.) Anyway--MM quickly "woke up" for his Aunt Julie and his momma--thus putting our hearts and minds at ease.

So, once again, poor Matt, my parents and my brother were in the waiting room and praying that MM would not come during the surgery. While I was being wheeled in to surgery--I kept telling the doctors and nurses my baby's name so that they can address him by name and tell him to not come during surgery. They obviously took care of both of us! They were wonderful! My poor family----I have given them so many scares throughout this pregnancy that I will owe them for the rest of my life for making them worry about MM and me so much!

Now---it is Wednesday--the day before Thanksgiving. Yesterday was a very tough day for all of us because having stitches in your belly button is one thing--but having them when you are 20 pounds heavier and the pressure of a 6 pound baby kicking on them is a completely different story!!! OUCH is an understatement but I keep telling myself that it is preparing me for the REAL thing soon!

This surgery was a huge shock for us but even more so for MM. He keeps thinking that he is supposed to come for Thanksgiving! We held off labor last night and today---which is a huge relief! I guess it wouldn't be so bad if we did come now since he has hit the big milestones that he has needed to do so. But, we would rather have him "cook" a little while longer plus there is still about 10 more things that I just thought of that needs to be done!! (Nesting instinct I guess.)

Anyway--Happy Thanksgiving to you all!!! We promise to post once Miracle Miller gets here as well as email everyone that we can think of! However, hoping that we have one more post for next week prior to his arrival!

Love and Peace to you and your family!!
We love you! Dana, Matt and MM

Quiet time...

Today is Friday, November 16th. The last time we posted was October 26th and sorry to those of you who read this blog on a weekly basis to get updates. Obviously things changed for us a little when we hit week 32--2 weeks ago.

At that big 32 week appointment--we got the "ok" to get off strict bed rest and start doing modified bed rest---which means I can DRIVE!!! Not that I can get out and be my normal "go at 100+ miles per hour self" but still to get permission to get out of the house 1 time a day was a huge step for us. I am sure Matt is thrilled with this because I am no longer as grumpy as I had been. So, these past 2 1/2 weeks, I have been consumed with making sure we are ready for MM to get here! Thanks to great information from many friends---we think we are ready. However, sure to any "new parents" life--I have a feeling that we have missed something and will realize it the first night when we get home.

So--according to our plan--MM is scheduled to be here on December 3rd! If he is anything like his father---he will be ON TIME or 15 minutes early! We are set for a csection that morning but not sure of the exact time yet. Our families are busy getting ready for this grand occasion.

In the meantime, Matt and I have realized that we need to take a Baby Care Class so that we will actually have an idea of what to do when he gets here. (I have come to learn that MM does not pop out with an instruction manual.) I have also asked Matt to come with me to a Breastfeeding Class too---to insure that I don't miss any crucial information. My "baby brain" tends to kick in quite alot these days! As said before, Matt is an incredible and supportive husband and I know that he will be a wonderful father too!

We have 2 weeks and 3 days to go until we get to meet MM! There have been many nights that Matt and I have stopped what we are doing, mute the TV and just sit there and listen to the quietness within the house. After sitting there and not saying a word--we look at each other and just smile because we know that this quiet time is only going to last 2 weeks and 3 days longer. However, Matt and I look forward to the chaos, lack of sleep and all of the love that MM will add to our lives. We know that MM is bringing us love as well as his brother's spirit into our lives very soon! We look forward to introducing him to all of you.

Thank you for helping to make our Miracle come true by praying for all of us! We could not have gotten to this place in our lives without your love and support!

Peace and love to you all!
Dana, Matt and MM

Only 5 1/2 weeks and counting...

Yep---only 5 1/2 more weeks to go before we get to meet Miracle Miller up close and personal! It is so surreal to actually know that by the first week of December we will have a baby in this house! Matt and I met with both Dr. U and Dr. B this week and have started planning everything. Cerclage comes out November 29th and MM will be here shortly thereafter. Of course, this is a perfect scenerio and pending no complications between now and then. I realize that we have come such a long way in 13 weeks and know that MM can hold out for the last 5 1/2! I am certain that he has stubbornness gene of both the Delo's and Meserole's! This little boy is going to be a "handful" but I can't wait!


I think the room is finished minus a shelf and a few pictures that need to get hung--but other than that--it ready for MM's arrival. This room is so very special to me because it has been a group effort by family and friends since I was not allowed to go out shopping! However, I have learned to shop on the internet which I think is a little more dangerous than doing it in person. It is easy to hit "enter" on an order and not realize that the money is magically disappearing from your wallet without even opening your purse. I think I am ready to do an AmEx commercial about the convenience of the internet and their card! Ha-ha!


For those of you who have not seen it--Miller's (and Lawton's) room is in a safari theme! I wanted MM to be around bright colors and fun animals! Matt refinished a piece of furniture and it turned out amazing! He also hung these antique tin shelves that Pam found for us when she was out shopping. On one of the shelves--we have reserved it solely for memories, sonogram pictures of Lawton. It is a special area that I wanted in the baby's room because without Lawton's strength of love for his big brother, Miller, we would have never gotten this far! He is our special angel and definitely needed to be included! As for the rest of the room, Matt did an incredible job and I honestly think he surprised himself on his "handy man" abilities!


The crib looks like an antique sleigh bed that reminds me of my Grandma Lucy's bed (straight from Italy) that I used to take naps in--and I always felts so secure because of the high headboard and high footboard. Susie (my sister-in-law and aka--Martha Stewart) is putting the final touches on a tablecloth for an end table and the valances. She is an amazing mom and seamstress and I plan take plenty of lessons from her in both areas!


So, all in all--things are fantastic here in the DeLo household. Matt and I sit around and just talk about how far we have come and try to imagine how crazy our house is soon to get when MM gets here! We also talk about the past--and know that we have to look back to realize even more how very blessed we are with our MM, family, friends, our angel in heaven (and butterfly on earth)--Lawton, and those we may never get to meet!

Peace and love to you all--
Dana, Matt and MM

p.s. Aunt Julie has renamed me "M.o.m.m.y." and I love it! It stands for "Mother of Miracle Miller...Yippee!" Thank you Julie--it is truly a special name and will be one that I "wear" proudly! :)

Looking back...

Today is Tuesday--October 16th. We went to the doctors last Thursday and it was our best appointment by far! Both Dr. U and Dr. B were very pleased that we were in Week 29 and counting. We even discussed our next options which included one more round of steroid shots when we hit week 32, when they would be removing the cerclage and when Miller may come into this world! All of this has made my head spin, my heart race and the rest of my body is experience chills. This is all good though it may not sound like it.


Don't get me wrong, I am more than excited that Miller is on his way---but at the same time, I am sad and torn from the past when I look back. I remember when I was in the hospital that a good friend told me that I will be having these emotions the closer to the birth of Miller. I have found that going forward is proving to be just as hard as it is looking back.


I know that we are not supposed to live in the past but rather learn from it and move on. Why does it feel like moving on alienates my other son, Lawton? Don't get me wrong--but I know that we have overcome so many obstacles and have been witness to so many miracles throughout this whole situation--but it just hurts that I won't get to hold both of my sons in the end! I realized that I just need to pray hard to find peace and comfort in knowing that this has all been God's plan. I have been at that peaceful place before---and I can find it again.

So, tomorrow--12 weeks ago--seems like an eternity and/or a whole different life. But, we have made so much great progress that it still seems to baffle me. Week 30!! We are in week 30! We have definitely won our Championship game but there is still a few more minutes left of the clock--so we will need to just keep racking up the points.

Maybe I feel like a bad sportsman because I am wanting to ramp up the score--but about 11 weeks and 5 days ago--Matt and I decided that we were in this to "win it" and give Miller the best life possible as his brother would have wanted it to be! We are definitely going to do it--though for some reason these next few weeks (7 weeks) seems like they are going to be the hardest. I have to keep telling myself that we have made it this far-so what is another 7 more weeks?? (However, tell yourself that while still trying to be a good patient and stay on bedrest.) So much to do in the next 7 weeks before he gets here.....need to get organized! Do you realize how much 1 baby requires---lots of clothes, burp clothes, diapers, etc... It is mind boggling!

However, through all of this mind boggling things and while looking back---Matt and I continue to realize that we are blessed to be in this situation and have one very special baby soon-to-be with us on earth and another special angel who is already in Heaven! He has been the greatest inspiration and cheerleader to Matt, Miller and myself! Go Team MM!

Wow--week 30 AND 2 days already! God's amazing work!

Peace and Love to you all--
Dana, Matt and MM

The Day Before...

Yes, today is Sunday, September 30th, and it is the day before the first day of Week 28!! Why is tomorrow so special? Well, because almost 10 weeks ago, we never thought we would get to be in the place that we are today which is the actual chance to have at least one of our babies! So, tomorrow, October 1st, marks Week 28---one of the biggest goals--if not THE biggest goals that we needed to accomplish! Tomorrow marks the day that we have "won" the game--but will still have plenty of time on the clock to keep adding points to our score!

Ok, let us take you back to a few appointments to catch you up. We went to the doctor during Week 26--Thursday, September 20th. We were expecting a perfect appointment like our others, but we got a little discouraging news. Miller's fluids had dropped down significantly enough to cause concern. However, there was nothing that we could do. He had to do it all on his own. Well, he must have felt his mommy worry--because between Dr. Berry and Dr. Uribe's office--he went from a 4 to an 8 to a 15 in his fluid level. Dr. Uribe and Julie said that when they do sonograms, it is just a quick snap shot and a times, they may reflect the lower levels.

Well, we had to go back in to see Dr. Berry last week to double check on our little guy and make sure all things were ok with him. In the meantime, between Week 26 and Week 27---Miller decided that he wanted to see his Aunt Julie--thus gave us another minor scare. Sweet Julie came and picked me up on Saturday to take me to the doctor's office and make sure all things were fine, and of course, they were!

Next, we had to go back this past Thursday to double check Miller's levels again. It was a quick appointment because all things were fine and his fluids were at a 14. (Normal range is 8 to 24) So back to normal---and also learned that we get to take another round of steroid shots on Monday and Tuesday---then again when we make it to week 32. These shots do inflict more pain than most--but to get to week 28 is a miracle and all miracles seem to come after experiencing some type of pain.

So, that brings you up to now.....all is good. No, all is great for the Delo household. Tomorrow is the offical day that we "win the game" but we still need to keep playing the "big game" until there is no more time on the clock. We just want to add more points to insure that the game is won by the biggest margin possible to give Miller the best chance possible to live a full and happy life!

Though Dana is getting tired of being on bedrest, we know we only have 8 weeks more to go before we get to hold our Miracle Miller. In the scheme of things--8 weeks will be easier than the last 10. We are just so blessed to get where we are--thus it makes it that much easier too!

As always--thank you for your continued support and prayers! We could have never gotten this far without each and everyone of you--our friends, family and our new found friends we may never get a chance to meet.

Peace and Love to all!
Dana, Matt and Miracle Miller

The Kindness of Strangers

Week 25 and 6 days---and still going strong thanks to the kindess of strangers. We keep looking towards our next goal of 28 weeks and it seems so far away from today. However, when you look back--7 weeks ago seems like an eternity and we were just praying to get where we currently are. We are truly blessed.

When we look back, we see so many acts of kindess from family, friends and from those we have never met. It is the kindess of strangers that is truly amazing gifts from God. Some of these strangers have come into our lives just at the "right time." We know that we have new friends that have already taught us how to be more loving and selfless just as they are.

Though they truly weren't the complete definition of "strangers", our friends, the People's have become just that---good friends that we will have in our lives for as long as they can stand us. They have shown us that miracles do happen as we have learned with their little boy---Miller. (Yes--their little boy was born at 27 weeks and I believe that he went home right before we lost Lawton.) Soon after they learned of our situation--both Danny and Stephanie contacted us to let us know that they were praying for us. Their heartfelt kindness and compassion, as well as their empathy has helped us especially since they had just experienced the stress of what we were facing.

Well, we are happy to report that their Miller is now 11 pounds big and still growing like a champ! We are now thinking that strength, courage and hope must be the "definition" of the name Miller--because we have a great role model in Miller Lee Peoples. We look forward to introducing the boys to each other one day soon (not too soon b/c Miller DeLo still has lots of growing to do.)

As for a true "stranger", by definition, that has reached out to us recently was a girl that has experienced the exact same situation as we are experiencing. Her name is Carol and we will just keep it at that to respect her privacy. Our paths crossed when a friend of ours, Christy, told us about her friend Jessica's sister-in-law who had the same "story" as ours--or so she thought. Christy sent us the link to Carol's blog--and I read it---and sure enough, it was as if we had found a needle in the haystack--her situation was identical to ours with the exception that she was expecting twin girls. Another needle in the haystack--she was 1 of the other 2 women in which Dr.Berry had performed the emergent cerclage on. (I am #3.) I am happy to report that she had her daughter Sophia during week 31 1/2 and Miss Sophia only had to spend 3 1/2 weeks in the hospital. This week, sweet Carol brought her daughter over to our house to meet us. It was an amazing experience to hold little Sophia and feel the renewed hope/strength that bed rest can sap out of you at times. This little girl (and her sweet mom) did so much for our spirits in their short visit. Thank you so much to Carol and Sophia! Today, she is 12 weeks old and weighs a little over 8 pounds. A true miracle!

Other moments of enlightenment and truth came in the from another "stranger" who is Randy from Promiseland Church. I remember Susie, my sister-in-law, telling me that Robin (Susie's sister) was going to send her pastor to come by and see me. Robin had told him about our situation and he wanted to see what he could do to help.

Randy did come by the hospital on the first day and I talked with him briefly. I honestly don’t know what I told him and I can’t tell you what he told me verbatim—but I can tell you that he came at a time when I was at the lowest place I had ever been before in my life. I kept praying to God to ask him for some comfort---and then God sent me Randy who had the most compassionate presence about him. I remember feeling so loved and cared for by someone I had never met before. I remember that he was a beacon of light in a very dark time of my life. I felt comforted that he came by to see me and that he offered his prayers for my babies and me.

I vaguely recall that he did come by again on the day that Lawton was taken from me physically and the same day that God gave Miller the courage and strength to continue the fight. I didn’t see Randy that day because it was too soon after my surgery and I was rather incoherent. However, Randy did speak with my family and said that he was going to continue to keep us in his prayers. Soon after Randy had been there “that day” and after it had registered in my mind that he had been there, I realized that he had shown me the comfort and strength of God’s love through his prayers. I was overwhelmed with this incredible calming feeling in a very volatile situation. I attribute this to many factors but the one underlying factor that has most moved me is the power of prayer—especially from strangers and my new-found friend, Randy.

Soon after my family had met Randy….Susie, my brother and his family went to Promiseland. As they were sitting there, they heard our name being included in the prayer list for that day. My brother quickly called me after church and told me about this. Matt and I were so touched that we were being included in the congregation’s prayers.

Each day since then, we keep hearing about more people praying for us—people we have never met—people who had heard about our need for prayer through their family, friends and the internet. We have been mentioned in several churches on Sundays--which is a true comfort to us. It is amazing to see God’s love in all aspects of life! It is truly one of many miracles we have seen. It is incredible to know that God always loves us and is always with us no matter what we may be facing in life. It is amazing to see the kindess of strangers.

Tomorrow starts Week 26 and we will have our doctors' appointments on Thursday-September 20th. We know that we are going to get some great news about how big Miller is growing! We can't believe that in a few short weeks--10 or a little less--that we are going to hold our Miracle in our arms! All of the prayers of ours, our family, our friends and our new friends who were once "strangers" are going to come true! We are truly, truly blessed in so many ways!

Peace and love to you all!
Dana, Matt and MM

Team Miracle Miller vs. the Other Guys

Currently, it is the end of the 3rd quarter and Team MM has finally pulled ahead and looking to post a win with only 1 more quarter to go. As of Tuesday when we went to the doctors' offices, we were at 24 weeks and 1 day. Dr. Berry and Dr. Uribe were very pleased with what they saw! Here are a few stats:

• Miller weighs approximately 1 pound and 7 ounces
• He is the size of a small loaf of bread from head to butt
• His fluid levels (the amniotic fluids) were 18.4 and the doctors want it be between 6 and 24.
• Once again, we heard--looks like a normal, singleton pregnancy. (ain't nothing normal about this pregnancy.)
• His heartbeat ranged from 155-161
• He still likes to get his picture taken and always starts with a "flash" of his privates to the camera first. (pretty funny)

So, after the initial appointment with Dr. Berry--it was suggested that we go on a steroid plan which involves 2 intramuscular shots. After we had taken (read: me/Dana) so many fertility shots to even get pregnant and to be where we are today---we thought it would be fairly easy to take. Matt was trying to convince the nurse to let him give it to me! (Thanks honey--but no thanks!) This shot was quite different because it was HUGE, burned like no other thing I have experienced (so far), and it lasted forever. I guess it seemed like it lasted forever because Matt was doing a "play by play" for me--such as "the needle is huge...is that a 18 gauge needle? and ok, honey--we are almost 1/2 done. It was funny though at the end of the first shot yesterday..and I had to go back in today for the second round. My poor brother had to take me today so I made him come in and let me squeeze his hand while I was getting the shot. I promised to not squeeze his hand so hard as to ruin his golf game. :)

As a refresher for you--these steroid shots will help Miller develop his lungs and membranes in his brain quicker. It will put him ahead by 2 weeks! This is huge for a premie if he decides to come before 36 weeks. So our next goal is to get the little guy to week 28--where his chances of survival without any major complications goes up by 50%! So, once we hit week 28, that will be the middle of the 4th quarter--and Team Miracle Miller will be winning the game without doubt. If we make it to week 34, then we are pounding our opponents--and by week 36, it will be a slaughter of a game with Team Miracle Miller beating the odds/competition decisively and by a HUGE margin! :)

During this whole experience/football game, we have experienced ups/downs, good/bad, positive/negative, sadness/rejoice, and every other emotion that can be felt. I surely thought we had felt them all by now--but after seeing the doctors yesterday--I was feeling that they just told me that I was pregnant for the first time again. I felt a true sense of "inspiration" and "hope" again! It was an incredible feeling but as strange as it sounds--I also found myself with a rather high anxiety level knowing that our child will be here soon. Anxiety because I find myself questioning if I am going to be a good mom (no doubt that Matt will be a GREAT dad), what do I do when he cries, how do I change a diaper properly and everything else that a first time mom questions prior to giving birth. Not too many get to experience the wonderful feelings that you get when you hear that after you have tried for so long to get pregnant--that you actually are--then to have that same great "you are truly pregnant" feelings re-occur again, it is truly a miracle. (Hard to explain this to men--but I am sure the women understand it).

We have been blessed with so many things throughout our pregnancy: getting pregnant (finally), blessed with twins, Baby Lawton becoming our angel in Heaven, MM being tough enough to fight it out to week 24 (and beyond), feeling truly pregnant again and realizing that our goal is within our reach.

Though the game is not over yet, the players are all healthy, tough and playing their little hearts out, the family and friends are cheering/praying for us so loudly that we are constantly inspired and strengthened more to win this game!

Peace and Love to all--

Dana, Matt and Miracle Miller

Happy "Non-Labor" Day

Today is Monday, September 3rd. Matt and I have decided to rename this holiday as "non-Labor" Day in honor of our little Miracle Miller! Today is also week 24---one of our many goals to hit...and we are all so happy to be here, though it was not without a few uneasy moments.

Sunday proved to be a more difficult day than others--mainly because I was having a few contractions more so than I had been having in the past. Well, Dr. Delorenzo (Matt) figured out that I had not been drinking enough water--thus this tends to increase the contractions. I guess this is Miller's way of telling me that he is very thirsty and to drink more. He obviously is working up a sweat by all of the moving and kicking he has been doing. (It is the greatest feeling I have ever experienced too) By the end of the day, I was doing great!

So, with this said...Happy "Non-Labor" Day to everyone! We hope that you get a chance to spend it with the people you love! We will be adding another blog update tomorrow because we get to go see Dr.Berry and Dr. Uribe--(my 2nd time out of the house since I have been home.) We know that they will be pleased with our progress!

Peace and love to you all!
Dana, Matt and MM

Monday, August 27th-Week 23

Ok, today it is official. Miller, Matt and I are in Week 23. (Full term babies and a "normal" pregnancy go to week 40) Between last week and this week, seemed like it dragged along, as I know that this next week will be even slower. As said in our last blog, week 24 is a huge milestone/goal for us! However, in our hearts, we know that we will hit that goal and then surpass our others.

While we were in the hospital, I had used a football analogy that this was sort of like a football game. After we had received good news from the doctors about my cervix closing and no infection, I told Matt that we were in the 2nd quarter of a National Championship football game and we were winning. Matt rephrased it as we were at the end of the 1st quarter, were getting our butts kicked 21-0 but were on our way to a comeback and had scored 14 points. So, we kept using this analogy throughout our hospital stay and shared it with Dr. Berry and Dr. Uribe right before we went into surgery. Dr. Berry said that it was halftime and that we had tied up the game. If we get to week 24-28, then we were well on our way to winning the game. After that, it was not a matter of if we win the game but by how much we want to "kick their butts". I told him that we wanted it really bad and to make this a game to go down in game-winning history! (I think I referenced a UT vs. Baylor game but Matt didn't appreciate it much!)

Anyway, in this upcoming season of college football, we are suited up, looking good and are playing our hearts out! We know that we have a lot of the game left to play but are taking it one play at a time and just moving that ball closer to the goal! We know that God is in our hearts and is our Coach, so we know that we are doing what it takes to put a "W" in the win column! Just as I know that the Longhorns will do the same. (go horns!)

So, I may not be at any of the games this year,but know that Matt, Miller and I are actively participating in one ourselves. You may see Matt at the games, if I can kick him out of the house and make him go, just so I can live my life vicariously through him. So, if you do see him, he will be there to scout out the Longhorns so that we may follow in their "National Championship" footsteps! I know that Miller is actively participating too because he reminds me every day by showing me that he can kick really hard, and is very "vocal" about which way I should be laying. I guess he is like the quarterback calling his plays and Matt and I are the receivers who will keep our eyes on the ball, catch it, run with our hearts to the goal line and believe that we can win this game! :)

Peace and love to you all!

Dana, Matt and Miracle Miller

August 22nd-So far, so good!

It has been a while since we posted on our blog, but once again--no news is good news! It has taken us about 1 1/2 weeks to settle down into the house. We are so blessed to be doing "bed rest" here instead of the hospital but I never realized how much harder it would be on the both of us--but more so Matt.

At the hospital, we had the comfort of nurses coming in to check on us and to hear Miller's heartbeat. Now, not so much. Poor Matt has taken place of all the nurses and clinical assistants (CA's), and has has to wait on me "hand and foot." Once again, he has proven to be an incredible husband and provider! I am so blessed in so many ways.

In order for us to be more secure with being at home, Matt is now looking to rent a Doppler which measures the baby's heart rate--like the ones they use in the doctor's office. If he could rent a sonogram machine and roll into the house, then he would do it. I told him that it is taking it a little too far--sort of like Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes did when they were expecting Suri. Anyway--Julie has stopped by a few times on her way home from work to check on Miller's heartbeat and to put our minds at rest. Not knowing what Miller is doing all of the time has to be one of the hardest thing about being away from the hospital but then again, I do miss the ice! :) We can't thank Julie enough for being such a wonderful friend and nurse to us! Once again,we are blessed with so many wonderful friends!

As for our meals--thank you so very much for all of y'all who have dropped off food. Obviously this has been a huge treat for us--especially Matt since he does not have to cook every night. These meals have been wonderful and I have successfully gained 3 of the 10 pounds I had lost in the hospital.

Speaking of weight, let us update you on Miracle Miller. We went to see Dr. Uribe and Dr. Berry yesterday and it was the best day I have had so far since leaving the hospital! It was the best for many reasons and they are as follows:

• It was the first time I got to get dressed up to go "out".
• It was a fun car ride--sort of--the bumps would scare me a little.
• I almost felt like a normal person just "going to the doctor"
• Dr. Uribe was pleased with seeing Miller's progression and his fluid level!
• My bed rest regime is going good and it is showing through Miller's growth.
• Dr. Berry said that he thought it looked like a normal, healthy pregnancy when he saw the sonogram results.
• Miracle Miller weighs 1 pound and 4 ounces--close to a Week 24 baby! (he is only 22 weeks and obviously an "overachiever") :)
• On the way home, we snuck over to my brother's house to see my sister-in-law, nieces, nephew and their newest addition--a puppy named Izzy.

All in all, it was a great day yesterday. Dr. Berry was pleased and for those of you who know the whole story and my "old" nickname for him, this is hard to do! He is an amazing doctor who took a huge chance/risk on us to give us the best chance to bring Miller into this world! So far--so good! We have 2 weeks to go before we see our doctor's again--but at that time, we will start a new regiment using steroids to get his lungs more developed in case he wants to come early (hope not--his room is not even close to being completed!) :)

August 13th--Home Sweet Home

Yes...we finally made it home to "the Creek" as Matt calls it. We got our "walking papers" on Saturday AM, and I don't think I could have gotten out of the hospital sooner! The idea of just being at home gave us all renewed strength to our ongoing battle. However, it didn't come without a few more tears.

As I was being wheeled out of the hospital by Sister Linda--I quickly learned that my departure was bittersweet. I busted out into tears because I felt that I was leaving a huge part of me and my heart at the hospital and that was baby Lawton. It just didn't feel exactly right and it hurt so very much! As I was being put into the car, I continued crying while Matt and Mom were trying to get all things accumlated into the car as fast as possible, so that they could console me. As Matt was trying to stuff in a beautiful, big butterfly balloon--it came loose and starting flying away. As Matt was apologizing that he had lost the balloon, I quickly stopped crying and looked up to watch it. It was a beautiful sight watching it fly into the blue, cloudless sky, towards the sun. Once again, I found a sense of peace and comfort. I honestly think that this was God and Lawton telling me that all was ok and that Lawton was safe.

So, we are all here at home--Matt, Miller, Jake, Truman and me AND loving it. It is so nice to be at home, in my own bed with my own things. However, I must keep telling myself that though I am at home, I am still on bed rest! There are so many things that need to be done before Miller gets here but I guess I can turn to the internet for these things. (Being connnected to the "real world" is a blessing in itself!) Lucky for me, I have many friends, sister (Susie), and mom who all want to help with Miller's room so I know that I am in great hands.

Anyway, we have an appointment with Dr. Berry and Dr. Uribe next Tuesday afternoon, and we know that they will be both be pleased with how good Miller and I are doing! :) Other than that---not much else is going on with the exception of being able to do some work from home and feel like I am contributing as a "normal" person would be doing. Give us a call here at 330-1722 or you are always welcomed to visit anytime!

Peace and Love to you all!
Dana, Matt and Miracle Miller

August 10th

Good news gets even better! As of our last entry, after the surgery....I have been progressively getting better...so much that we heard the word "home". There is a chance that we get to continue our fight from home since Miller has been so good---and of course, our doctor's have been brilliant! We are still not out of the woods but have accomplished another goal. Week 36 here we come! Ok, I know that it is 16 weeks away but Miller, Matt and I know that we are going to get there!

So, this is Day 17 in the hospital...and I walked for the first time in last night--since I was admitted on July 25th. It was the most incredible feeling. Guess you could say that I was taking "baby steps". For this--I am so blessed to be out of my bed and feel sort of back to normal!

Anyway, here are a few things I have learned both funny and serious:

• Pedicures last longer when you don't get the chance to walk.
• Hair on one's legs seems to not grow as fast when you are lying in bed.
• Flowers do brighten a dark hospital room---even when the flowers are dying.
• Some people do say stupid things to those who are in the hospital ("Did that just come out of your mouth?")
• I will NEVER again wish I could just "lay around in bed" again!
• A sponge bath w/hair wash--next best thing to Lake Austin spa
• Soft, fuzzy, warm socks are the best invention
• God is ALWAYS with me!
• The nurses at Seton are incredible loving people. Nurses are truly people who have the biggest hearts..and they should get paid more for what they do!
• There is such a person as a compassionate and brilliant doctor as seen with Dr. Uribe and Dr. Berry! With out their persistence...I would not have had any options nor would we have had a chance to experience Miracles!
• The true and pure meaning of "love" as seen through our friends and family!
• The Holy Spirit is comforting, calming and is an incredible feeling.
• The power of love and prayer is amazing!
• Miracles do happen---seen now and will be seen throughout the next 16 weeks.

So we will continue to fight this battle but in the comfort of our own home! To say Matt, Miller and I are excited is a huge understatement! Come see us at 2411....where my "room" will be bigger and more comfortable! Plus more space in the fridge to offer you a beer or a glass of wine!

Love to you all! Prayers still encouraged and welcomed!

SUCCESS!!!!

Another blessing has been bestowed upon the DeLorenzo family! Dana's surgery went perfect and the amnio on Miller was even better! Dr. Berry and Dr. Uribe visited with Jim, Sonia and I after the surgery and informed us that Dana as usual was an over-achiever. Dr. Berry displayed a strong confidence in her success which put all of us at ease. We can not give enough thanks to the doctors, nurses, friends and family for all of their support during this time of need. Dana is resting well in room 246 and has orders to get out of bed and walk tomorrow if she feels up to it. Yes actually get out of bed! Dr. Berry indicated that we can return home Friday or Saturday with Dana on continued bed rest for another 7-10 days. We will consult with Dr. Uribe on his decision of when we return to our home but all signs show positive and we continue to stay strong in our faith. This has been a unique experience of highs and lows but we stay determined to bring Miller and Dana through this with a 30+ week delivery. Our next milestones are as follows: Return home within the next few day and continue our journey to 28 weeks. When all goes well we have a new milestone of 32 weeks and then 36+. Dr. Berry conveyed that anything over 30 weeks is great progress and that we should focus our energy on getting to that point.

So we are doing well and looking forward to getting through the next 48 hrs with no infection and limited contractions. Dana is awesome and is a tough women who is on a mission. I admire her strength and resolve to make this family a reality. I love her more each day and thank God he has blessed my life with her love. Please know we will try to return everyone's calls but the next day or two will be busy for us so please understand that we all appreciate your support. I ask we hold off on visitors for the next day or two so Dana can focus on her recovery and rest.

As always please continue to keep us in your prayers.