It’s 8am and we had a good night. So good, that I have insisted to Matt that I wanted to write the entry for today. (Obviously feeling good because I am getting “bossy” again.)
Last night was uneventful—which is exactly what we want. The only exception is that I kept having bad thoughts and dreams trying to creep in on me. I realized that this was probably Satan trying to get into the situation—but with each negative thought that tried to rear its ugly head—I just said a prayer to God which comforted me and Miller. The morning came soon after and then the sun was shining! Once again, Matt, Miller and I are comforted by God’s presence in our lives. Another sign was when I woke up, Matt handed me a quote that Mama Sandy (Matt’s mom) had seen in our house. It is a daily quote from the author Marianne Williamson that says: “Intimacy is where we are willing to move so deeply into love that the demons do not deter us from our conviction to make it through to the light.” Obviously this quote was perfect for the day that it was meant for (July 27th—the day that Baby Lawton went to Heaven to be with our Mighty God) as well as today. I believe it is a great quote for our entire journey that we have embarked upon since last Wednesday.
Our little Miracle Miller is doing well and keeps reminding me that he is there which is a huge relief. The nurses come in and check for his heartbeat 2-3 times a day and he is very active which is good. I know that he is active because he is so strong AND I feel that he is still looking around for his brother. I have to remind him that his little brother, Lawton is in Heaven but looking out for him, his mama, and his daddy.
We know that Miracle Miller is so very strong because of his good genes. Between his stubborn mom and dad, he also has the Meserole and DeLorenzo strong fighting genes too. I know that Matt has said he is amazed by my strength---but his strength is even more amazing than mine. He has had to endure watching me go through all of this without getting a chance to fix things which he always likes to do.
Today is our 2nd anniversary and I love him more than I did when I first met him, when we got married, when we conceived Lawton and Miller. The love for him that I have is the kind that you can’t fully explain with words and the kind that each great movie and/or book strives to create but falls short. I pray that each of you find this kind of love if you have not already. The only thing I can do is thank God for all that he has given me.
Lastly—sorry this is so long but you have figured out by now that our spirits are up which is an incredible feeling. I know that Matt has said this before, but thank you for all of your love, support and most of all, your prayers! We know that we are so loved by all of our family and friends that it is overwhelming. I don’t know how we can return the favor of your many prayers, love and kindness, but I do know that we will be trying to thank all of you for the rest of our lives. The one way I can think of is by letting our little Miracle Miller give all of y’all lots of hugs and kisses when he gets here after week 30!
So with all of this said---the party continues in Room 219 at Seton. Please feel free to come by and say “hi” to all of us! Definitely try to get Matt out of the room for a beer or two because he deserves it and needs a break. (However, no Texas Hold’em or “Shallenge” for the time being because I get a little scared being away from him for so long.) Oh—when he does get out of here for his first round of golf----boys, please give him some strokes because I know that his game has suffered too)
Love, Joy and Peace to all of you!
Dana, Matt and our little M&M (Miracle Miller)
Last night was uneventful—which is exactly what we want. The only exception is that I kept having bad thoughts and dreams trying to creep in on me. I realized that this was probably Satan trying to get into the situation—but with each negative thought that tried to rear its ugly head—I just said a prayer to God which comforted me and Miller. The morning came soon after and then the sun was shining! Once again, Matt, Miller and I are comforted by God’s presence in our lives. Another sign was when I woke up, Matt handed me a quote that Mama Sandy (Matt’s mom) had seen in our house. It is a daily quote from the author Marianne Williamson that says: “Intimacy is where we are willing to move so deeply into love that the demons do not deter us from our conviction to make it through to the light.” Obviously this quote was perfect for the day that it was meant for (July 27th—the day that Baby Lawton went to Heaven to be with our Mighty God) as well as today. I believe it is a great quote for our entire journey that we have embarked upon since last Wednesday.
Our little Miracle Miller is doing well and keeps reminding me that he is there which is a huge relief. The nurses come in and check for his heartbeat 2-3 times a day and he is very active which is good. I know that he is active because he is so strong AND I feel that he is still looking around for his brother. I have to remind him that his little brother, Lawton is in Heaven but looking out for him, his mama, and his daddy.
We know that Miracle Miller is so very strong because of his good genes. Between his stubborn mom and dad, he also has the Meserole and DeLorenzo strong fighting genes too. I know that Matt has said he is amazed by my strength---but his strength is even more amazing than mine. He has had to endure watching me go through all of this without getting a chance to fix things which he always likes to do.
Today is our 2nd anniversary and I love him more than I did when I first met him, when we got married, when we conceived Lawton and Miller. The love for him that I have is the kind that you can’t fully explain with words and the kind that each great movie and/or book strives to create but falls short. I pray that each of you find this kind of love if you have not already. The only thing I can do is thank God for all that he has given me.
Lastly—sorry this is so long but you have figured out by now that our spirits are up which is an incredible feeling. I know that Matt has said this before, but thank you for all of your love, support and most of all, your prayers! We know that we are so loved by all of our family and friends that it is overwhelming. I don’t know how we can return the favor of your many prayers, love and kindness, but I do know that we will be trying to thank all of you for the rest of our lives. The one way I can think of is by letting our little Miracle Miller give all of y’all lots of hugs and kisses when he gets here after week 30!
So with all of this said---the party continues in Room 219 at Seton. Please feel free to come by and say “hi” to all of us! Definitely try to get Matt out of the room for a beer or two because he deserves it and needs a break. (However, no Texas Hold’em or “Shallenge” for the time being because I get a little scared being away from him for so long.) Oh—when he does get out of here for his first round of golf----boys, please give him some strokes because I know that his game has suffered too)
Love, Joy and Peace to all of you!
Dana, Matt and our little M&M (Miracle Miller)
4 comments:
Happy anniversary! That is a beautiful quote, very inspiring. I cannot tell you haw many people you do not know are already praying for your little man! And long posts are wonderful! It's amazing how times of tribulation can become the catalyst in your relationships with others, and with God. And you wouldn't be human if you didn't have scary thoughts. But God will bring you through this, on the wings of everyone's prayers.
We hope you have a beautiful day!
Danny & Stephanie
Dana, Matt, and MILLER!
We miss you all! Especially Dana (and Miller) at work (and Matt as well when he is at the Club, 'working'!). We were excited to see your blog where we can stay up informed.
Melanie and I are both amazed, absolutely amazed by your strength, resolve, courage, and faith. You all are such great examples to us. We have you in our daily prayers and know that they are listened to and answered. We cannot wait to see you all soon.
I read a great quote yesterday from John Wooden, "Tough times don't last, but people do!"
We wish you our very best and will keep you close. We love you all!
Ryan and Melanie
Hi Matt,
This is Tracy Brandon Kotara. Just found out about your sweet family from Terri. I am so sorry! I have kept you all in my prayers since I heard and will keep you guys there. Take care and stay strong.
Love to hear the smile in your voice again "D". Ill see you guys tomorrow. We made it back to Austin and Avery and MacKenna said special prayers for 'BABY B' and Aunt Dana and Mr. Matt!
Love, Steph, Zach and the girls.
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